Word of the week – Enigma: a person or thing that is mysterious, puzzling or difficult to understand.
Everyone has been on a positive journey to find their true and best selves. But we should still be careful of those with egnimatic complexes.
Being transparent and vulnerable to friends, family and strangers will never get more comfortable. That’s alright though because what’s required in life doesn’t come easy. I find that often we tend to create a fictitious persona to please our friends, family, co-workers, and strangers. It’s as though being honest and genuine isn’t honored because we fear the consequences of what others will think about us. But it’s much more challenging to keep up with a lie.
A friend shared with me an Instagram post that read “isn’t it weird to think that so many versions of you exist in others minds? Some people see me as a shy girl who doesn’t talk, some see me as an annoying girl who doesn’t shut up, some see me as kind & caring, some see me as cold & mean, some see me as timid, some see me as crazy.” This resonated with me so much because I know I’ve been all those characteristics with people at some point. But there’s a mystery in who I am because I react off of the energy people show me.
So why haven’t I allowed myself to just showed up before others show me? Fear.
Fear of constant judgment and ridicule held me back. And it tormented me for years. It held me back from opportunities and places that I desired.
In 2018 I finally decided to show up and let go of the mystery of who I am. I choose to be vulnerable and honest and loud. Since then the universe has been so good to me. I haven’t decided to show up only for the world but also for myself. Being full on present and stepping out on faith is a choice. And being yourself is more significant than being a puzzle.
Like the amazing Maya Angelou said “when people show you who they are, believe them,” show people who you are because it’ll weed out who’s for you and who isn’t and that’s not always a bad thing. Everyone isn’t for you, but puzzles allow others to create a story for you. Choose who you want to be!